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Hei, guys!!
It’s been a few days since I last left something here. Lol!! I have some interesting dull stuff for everyone Haha! The time has come for me to made a real tough decision. Remember my last post everyone? The one I said I’ll be stepping down from my youth president post? Yeap, thats the one.

I’ve finally came to my sense that I’ll not take the post back, since it was God’s will for me to step down with the peace in my heart, and that Joann will not take up the post and I assume it’s also God’s will that Joann dont take up the post. That’s to prevent misunderstanding too. Anyway, now that the leaders suggested me to stay back leading the youth.. I’ve got another tough decision to make. I’m short of going around asking people for oppinion whether I should stay or not. Seems like most of them (my youth wants me to stay), others says I should take a rest, some others say it’s according to the peace of my heart that God will give me.

WOW! Got some pretty amazing advises from them, but thanks everyone. My decision is to step down and continue as a mentor to them. I’ve got some pretty harsh stuff from people talking bout me. Yea, I do agree when I was taking the president post, I was a lil stiff-headed Doink* I was a lil bossy and there’re sometimes I do want things my way (If you Guys out there sees this please do forgive me for stuff I did that didnt please you guys.). From the person who told me this, there’s one thing I can’t really understand, that’s I was negative. Yea, I do agree I cause lots of trouble for Gina at times. I do depend on Gina to make decisions ‘cuz there were times I wasnt confident enough to make them, but about negative. Probably I was a lil negative sometimes.

Then again, I want to thank that person so much for telling me this though it might consider a lil of gosipping, but still I’ll take it to my own account as evaluating myself. There’re some things you wouldnt know until someone else tells you ’bout it. Really grateful to those who guided me throughout my journey as a youth president. Just to tell you guys, I’ve never consider myself a youth president as a president, ‘cuz God has raise such a "rotten" person as I am to serve Him. I didnt want to treat those people in my youth as people that can carry me to a high ground or use my authority as a way to be "The Leader" but to go down to them and feel what they feel and love them. That’s the most important and valuable lesson I’ve learned through all these years.

Well, it’s lunch time now. I hope that everyone be as straight forward as Rev. David to me. He’s always been straight forward towards me. I never knew why, ‘cuz when people are straight forward with you, it never sounds nice. And through this I was able to learn how to be patient, control my behaviour, my outer appearance as a person of Christ, and to love others. For "The Gang" of my youth’s committee and the members. It’s time to stand up for God. Wake Up Now!!

THE TIME IS NOW!!

By the way, guys I shortta fell in love with this gurl.. shortta got to know her this year only .. but there’s some problems that I’m facing.. lolx.. WOW!! (what a way to ask for advise but I’ll try)
I havnt been in a relationship before but thats not the problem.. the problem is.. I don’t know how to talk.. others told me to know her more 1st.. but I’m seriously not a good chatter.. I always run out of topic.. and ended up with a very quiet conversation.. which I always gets messed up cuz when i starts thinking of a topic.. i’ll look very weird..

Hehe.. wonder if som1 wud help me on this lolx.. meantime i’ll pray that God will guide me on this.. lolx.. man falling in love with som1 sure is tough..

Ha-ha. I’m back from church. It’s 1.44am now, officially declared 2nd day of last month of the year. Wow~ Amazing~ so fast another year has gone. What?! Gone?! Damn, another day closer to reach my final project. T’was hoping it doesnt come.

Anyway let me share bout my day yesterday. Haha. Today we’re suppose to go shopping (for christmas item for church) and decorate the church. The time we planned was 4pm - 6pm (shopping), then reach church at 7pm - 8.30pm decorate. In the end we ended up reaching church at 8.45pm (Monthly prayer meeting started d..So couldn’t do anything but wait till prayer meeting end).

We were supposed to also do our Youth ‘07 planning, due to time constrain we wasn’t able to do the planning ‘cuz prayer meeting ended at 10.40pm. CRAZY~!! Today was the longest prayer meeting, but still can tahan Haha. 

I went with Gina (advisor), Joann, Nicolette (eh ur name so hard 2 pronounce la), and Justin low to IKEA. Wow.. wasn’t my first time there but still so many things to see, but today didn’t have the mood to talk so much. Something was bothering me. CRAZY stuff.. like this girl but don’t know how to talk to her, and she’s been acting different when I’m around. Anyway I’ll just have to leave all those things to "The Greatest Matchmaker" (Haha God la). And also that I’ve finally came to my sense that God wants me to move on from the youth, my currently post will be an advisor. Haha~ Being the first president was so AMAZING and a lil-tough to acknowkedge my time is up.

Anyway the guys brought lots of currypuffs from IKEA. Lol~ the whole car smelled like currypuffs. So we went to this store near my chruch selling more christmas deco. WOW~ more amazing trees.
(Gina now i know why u kept saying church’s christmas tree was white when it’s green. Lol~)

After that we went mamak for dinner. Haha. Didn’t ate much then, ‘coz I ordered "maggie mee tak mau sayur tak mau chili" and the guy gave me "maggie mee semua mau" wasn’t feeling well d~ somemore lagi not so well.Lol~

After prayer meeting we finally start our work in decorating and decided to postpone the Youth Planning to next week. So Justin as usual with da girls.. buwahhaha~!! Anyway, he helped doing the snowflaks thingy, while i helpped Gina do the climbing as usual Haha~

First time we did so much from 11pm - 1am (today.) *Yawnz*  Sorry haha~ kindda sleepy d.. Anyway we decided to hang out at the mamak near nicole’s (short form ler) house. Watch a crappy movie (derno watz the title but super crappy) by Keanu Reeve.

Haha~ (Wah~ 2pm d.. currently watching One Piece: Movie 7) orite lemme end myself lolx finally typing all shortforms.. ahh… nity nitez.. love u peeps out dere~

Joshuey signing out~

It’s 3 years now, since the youth fellowship started. I remember I was 17 back then, taking my SPM, haha.. being the 1st president with the 1st batch of committees and the 1st batch of members ain’t easy at all. Hugh dreams like having a Youth revival conference, Youth concert, hugh stuff haha, and etc.

Each time we see, we heard people saying their youth group grown from 10 to a 100 in a year, we’ll always look back to ourselves. Eveytime when we see or we heard that the other youth fellowship from another church’s able to do something awesome, we look back at ourselve disappointed and kept on dreaming that one day it’s going to happen.

Well all I could say was these 3 years of my life has been the most meaningful, awesome life changing experience. I was a "Ponteng King" in form4, skipped school for approximately a 100 days. Haha that a record a christain like me has broke, but things change when I was able to continue staying in the school due to some reasons *if you wanna noe pm me*. Anyway lemme get back to myself. During that time I’ve already said to myself I’m going to start a youth fellowship in my church. AMAZINGLY, guess what, our Pastor-in-charge said to me "Hey Joshua, I think it’s time your church start a youth fellowship and you’ll be leading them."

I was so overwhelmed that I couldn’t sleep. When the day finally come for our first meeting. Haha, just the few of us (we called ourselve the Committee aka. Member), but that’s all alone time ago.
We consisted of a bunch of weird people with weird personalities (like me a "ponteng king"?!).
But through these years working together, God has made so much changes not only this YF has impacted our life but the church’s life and also the LCEC (our church leaders) and also the adults. Those I said with funny characters all have changed. Seeing them grow is such a joy. I’ve been in this church for 8 years now. So many young ones have come to join the YF. Such Joyful memories will never be forgotten, that how the work of God which is so amazingly, perfectly done.

It’s so amazing~!! Now, 3 years later, finally I guess my time is up. I totally ignore the methodist youth fellowship’s handbook that says that the committee will undergo a voting session for the next batch of committee, haha.. well I’m a 3 year old president haha.., the LCEC (my church’s leaders) is asking whether is anyone suitable to take my place as president next year.I myself will be "promoted" to be an advisor.

Now here’s my problem. I’m worried ’bout "Da Gang", usually I’ll do their stuff if they cant do it. Haha.., shortta kindda "manja" da committee. I don’t know how to let go of this youth and move on. Though everyone is say "Your still a youth…(advisor)", but the feeling is totally different. This youth fellowship is like part of me, and it kepts coming to me that I have not done alot for the youth. I’ve dedicated my life to God for youths everywhere. God always made promises that never fails, I want to take that example that the promise that I’ve made to God will not fail. I have a feeling that God is going to give me much bigger stuff to do from now on.

Tomorrow is thursday. The day that I’ll remember for life. The day that God is going to tell me whether to stay for another year or not.

P.s Those who read this (christians) please do pray for me. Thx alot.

I’m back, haha, last week was awfully crazy.. haha was like slopping at home for the past four days.. if you guys was stucked at home 4 four days you’ll know how it felt.. it’s awfully tiring~!!.. like can you imagine that.

All i did was playing games, checking out how to crack my pirated window xp and office.. damn microsoft so freaking sux now.. cant do anything without original.. and i freaking have to reinstall my windows every 30days.. n itz super irritating ’cause you’ve to reinstalling lots of program again..

I’ve checked the price of the original win xp home cd.. and guess what.. you’ve gotta pay a sum of freaking RM310 just for that piece of junk cd with a activation code in it.. that so so crazy.. and i’m currently broke ’cause gotta fund myself to take my licence haha.. still I havnt sat for my undang test again haha.. it’s been 2 weeks now since the STUPID 5 hour lecture..

Anyway yesterday we (d youth n myself) has lots of fun crapping haha.. YEAP~! We had out 1st big annual dinner.. whoo hoo~!!.. almost everyone turned up… AMAZING.. haha.. We had our dinner at Subang Parade.. at Secret Recipe.. the food there’s  kindda orite.. it cost like RM21 per person.. some were so packed and some hadnt had enough.. after that we "lepak" around Subang Parade for an hour.. man what can you do in that place.. anyway Sam n I went to check out some plasma TVs… "ahhhh" man 80" TV whooaa… AWESOME~!! If I have one man.. I’ll rather b a freaking couch potato.. haha.. anyway that juz a dream cuz the price…… itz also fantasy..

anyway gotta go now ciao~

dying soon 4 siting infront of the comp 4 so long..

Wow I cant belive it I’m back. Amazing !…
Dang.. you know what..
I’ve been stucked at home and never left an inch from my hse for
4 days now..
and it’s driving me crazy..
freaking lazing around.. sleeping at 2am waking up around 10am or 11am..
laze throughout the whole afternoon.. downloading tons of movie..
getting a tummy..
Dang so no life la..
btw if anyones got a job for me.. contact me eh.. man im craving 4 a job now..
no money no life.. wat else…

Hei I’m back..

Haha.. another year has past.. damn and it’s my 19th year living..

19 years and still have no idea what I’ve accomplished..

I’ve alway wanted my Birthday 2 fall on a Sunday.. hey after 19 years it fell on a Sunday.. haha..

but then there goes my usual Sunday habits.. lazing around haha.. well atleast serving God on your birthday is kindda cool..

and doin the P.A system 1st time during Sunday Service was oso cool haha..

aihz.. kindda like this girl.. but kindda weird cuz I’m bad in expressing myself.. terrible la me..

Have known this girl since end of last year I guess.. kindda get to know her in May liddat.. haha.. den slowly get to know her more..

kindda fell 4 her.. lolx.. weird.. I feel like I’m toking nonsense now.. lolx..

btw all those SPM-ers out there..

ALL DA BEST~!!  *i hate bm n sej but gud combinations*

Well haha I’m back frm caroling practice.
Wasn’t the dream practice I had in mind.
Btw through God all things are possible.. We did started our 1st youth caroling practice..
1st time playing the guitar 4 caroling.. 1st time having so few people who turned up..
haha.. anyway I believe God wants me 2 learn somthing.. I’m clueless bout it.. but HEY..
who knows..

Had a blister on my tumb rite now for playing the guitar for 2 hours straight (non-stop)
GILA-NYA…

I’ve learned a very valueble lesson today..tot of sharing it with every1..
U know.. I’m turning 19 this sunday.. man 19 years of Crap.. this gotta stop..
And I’ve seen the dark side of my church.. neh you dowanna noe..
People have been throwing all responsibilitys around like a ball *DAMN*..
And somehow caroling was thrown to me.. I also realized that
"Hey you noe wat? Busy la end of the year.. Neh youth president here… aiya they all can 1 la.."
man that total BULLSHIT*

Anyway I’m still clueless why the HECK I’ve ever agreed on taking it up..
We’ve got no experience.. no1 to help us lead.. no1 supporting..
Juz like giving us a wore out net with  big holes for us beginers to catch fishes…

aihz but watever comes God says "I’ll be with you where ever you go." and that all things are possible in His name..

Well this my longest post haha.. 1st time 2… ciao~

Phew.. it seems ages since my last post..
n t’was last year’s post.. haha somhow looks like evr1 hav 1 of their own..
tot of giving another go..

2day went 2 get my results aihz.. cudnt maintain an A a semester d..
Got a B- and a terrible C- (man i hate coding subjects, especially the ones require you 2 create a system)
Totally sux~!!

But anyhow.. i cleared this sem.. boring classes only learned 2 sleep n admire those in the past with awesome system
(only can admire but cant do anything)..

Went 2 MayBank in SS15 2day… 1st time entering money 2 som1’s account…
Since monday i’ve been saying i’ll go 2 the bank… looks like i’ve finally been 2 the bank 2day haha…
u noe… when u start lazing around… really lazing 2 the max…

our 1st youth’s caroling practice 2nite… aihz… no1 responese 2 come… juz don like this task…
im da main guitarist… n i’m still messing up those beat thingy 4 the songs…

orite gotta go now 2 shower… cant believe dat itz raining in my hse… t’was thundering like mad…
n the whole belcony’s flooded…

whee man i can’t wait 2 go there 4 CF rally wheeHoooo….~!!

tell u guys later….i mean after i come back ler haha….